I've hit a slump

Throughout my high school and college life I have been able to easily find the joy in life. However, at this point in time in my life I am finding it hard to be enthusiastic and passionate. I don't know why but I've lost my enthusiasm. With frustrations at home and frustrations at work, I have spent the past few weeks rather frustrated. After a quite emotional Fall 2009, I was looking forward to taking a break from class and focusing on work. I have many things to be thankful for. I try to thank God everyday for the people he has put in my path, the family he has given me, and the many blessings I have to be grateful for.

 

But nonetheless, I've lost my passion for writing and reading. I've fallen down when it comes to my daily scripture reading and prayer life. I don't enjoy waking up and don't enjoy sleeping. TV doesn't interest me. Food has lost its flavor, and I'm not extremely motivated about anything. I've hit a slump and don't know why.

 

It's not that I don't know how I need to feel, or what I should be doing, it's that I'm not motivated. When I was at college I was always around people. Even when I was in my room by myself, I knew there were people not far away. Currently, I'm not around a whole lot of people. Although I'm an only child, over the past nine years I have developed into more of a people person.

 

For whatever reason, I'm not feeling like myself. Perhaps a vacation is in order. Coming soon I will have the tremendous opportunity to visit Alaska and attend a family wedding in Washington. This summer will be filled with trips related to both work and pleasure. With friends getting married and friends graduating from college there are many reasons to celebrate and be joyful. However, I think I need some personal rest and relaxation before I'm prepared to get back to being myself. The time has come for me to refocus; hopefully a real vacation will help get me back on track.

 

I have recently discovered a song by Billy Dean called "Only Here For A Little While". The song has a great message and as I try to refocus on where I'm at in my life I feel this song sums up what I've got to put into action when it says:

 

"What's the hurry, why the runnin'?
I don't like what I'm becoming, gonna change my style
Take my time and not take it all for granted "
Cause we're only here for a little while

Let me love like I'll never see tomorrow
Treat each day as though it's borrowed
Like it's precious as a child
Whoa, take my hand
Let us reach out to each other
Cause we're only here for a little while

Gonna hold who needs holdin'
Mend what needs mendin'
Walk what needs walkin'
Though it means an extra mile
Pray what needs prayin'
Say what needs sayin'
Cause we're only here for a little while

 

 

T.J. Martin

Opelika, AL